What has kruh-tom done for you?

[Happygoverment]

Hey y'all was sitting around just thinking and looking back at my life and where id be if id never found Kratom i had spent a week in the hospital because my kidneys shut down because my years of alcohol abuse finally caught up with me on top of the years of pill popping i only stopped that because of i simply couldn't afford to do that anymore and was tired of the chasing trading my soul thing alcohol was cheaper and easier my feet and whole body has swollen to the point where I couldn't walk i was at the point in my life where I couldn't take it anymore I had seen a documentary on kratom and the day i got out I decided to buy a bag of halo white maeng da instead of my usual six pack and fifth of beam star for breakfast I was blown away with the effects i felt releif instantly and I found this forum which im so great full for i think that everyone should know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and there is hope i freaking suck at explaining what I feel inside and i think that everyone who is out there suffering should know there is life beyond the shit storm there's hope you are worth it if I can over come homeless shelters rehabs and realize that im somebody i wasn't born to loose you can beat it and you are worth it i am here because I made the choice to give myself a chance thru for me is a true miracle would not be alive today if it wasn't for these tree leaves I think we should all share our stories of hope so others can see the light

[Kruh-Tom]

lol you know Kruh-Tom always got your back.

You on the path my man. That's what's up.

[DittonW]

I think we should all share our stories of hope so others can see the light

ok - I'll bite .
congratulations happygovernment. When I read stories like yours, it makes me realize that this is really real, and working for a lot of other people. That my experience is not unique and that this really is a big deal .. Its I spent so many years in 12 step meetings that I it feels sort of weird and , maybe superficial to tell my come to Jesus story. I've just heard and TOLD so many "I was going to die - but thanks to these rooms I have a bright and happy future" - and then two days later wake up in a hotel room and wonder where the fuck I was. One tends to get a little more cautious about the "it's a miracle " speeches after years of chronic relapsing .
Not to come dow too hard on 12 step - I am real happy for those it works for , but it did not work for me, and it got really depressing and discouraging to hear that "the program works" - you just must not be working it right. In some ways I feel like I am still waiting for the other shoe to drop this time around . you know "knock on wood

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BUT - and its a pretty big butt : I absolutely do feel like those days are behind me for good and it just wouldn't have been possible with kratom . It is miraculous. There really isn't any way to put it. I mean - it really does boggle my mind if I stop for a minute and think about how much things have changed in the last couple of years, and I wouldn't have believed it if someone had told me it was possible ( see , it sounds just like I'm back in a meeting

The most awesome parts of my life today is that I have full custody of my son, I support us by running a decent business and that doing both of those things is actually a lot of fun . But the best thing about it is I don't feel like I am always one step away from fucking up and losing everything . Which is how I have felt for most of my life whenever things started going well .
It just felt like a constant struggle all the time to keep my head above water. Like - I am getting off of probation on the 27th I any other time I have been released from some kind of supervision there was alway at least a little part of my mind that started thinking about how nice it would be to have a drink , or chip around with dope a little . The "I can keep it to twice a month" type thing . The ruminating . But that is just not there this time -

I don't know why I have a tendency to beat around the bush and look for a way to say it without saying it . The facts are : taking kratom every day takes away my urges to drink or do drugs and that has changed my life in ways that I am beyond amazed and thankful for . I think I stay away from stating it plainly because people turn it into " your just replacing one drug for another " - be that as it may . Its replacing something that ruined my life with something that helps me make the best of my life every day . If it was just a case of replacing one thing for another then how come replacing heroin with pills and alcohol ended up with me being in jail instead of running a business and being the worlds best father ? I don't know either . There is something different going on in my brain chemistry that has caused a whole lot of problem over the years and taking kratom makes it manageable for the first time ever.,

Which is why really it is important to tell these stories despite everything - because the people who want to give me trouble about it , the government agencies that want to restrict my access, and the ABSOLUTE IDIOTS on reddit who want to make it illegal because "when I quit taking it I felt kind of bad for a week" - need their voices drowned out by people who have had a pretty bad couple of decades before they started taking kratom. People like me who stole all your pills, forged a check or two and then got drunk and drove around town . It's really in societies best interest to keep the kratom shipments coming to my house. The alternative is not pretty .

Sorry might have got a little off track there. ranting . etc

I mean, it's kind of boring I guess- I'm sitting here on a Friday night with a clean house , the dishes washed, kid and cats fed and asleep. Radio at a reasonable level . waking up tomorrow not in jail . give a guy a break .